Let me start by clarifying something. When I refer to my “anxiety,” I’m not simply talking about my fears or situations that make me nervous. I’m not talking about the kind of anxiousness that everyone experiences throughout their life. I’m talking about generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) — a mental condition that affects nearly every aspect of my life in one way or another.
You’ve probably noticed my nervous behaviors: Bailing on plans last minute. Making excuses to stay at home. Chewed nails and sudden crying. Shortness of breath, restlessness, fearing new situations, the inability to go to places alone and panic attacks.
I try to hide my struggles but I know you see it. You see it because you care. And because you care, you often try to help. You tell me to take deep breaths. You tell me to calm down or
Donal (17) lost his battle with lung cancer on May 12 2013..
Donal quoted ‘EVERY day people say I’m brave, that I’m courageous and I hate that. I’m just doing what I have to do to survive, to live another day’
At 12years of age Donal was diagnosed with Osteo Sarcoma (Bone Cancer) in his tibia, The first time they told me, I was at home, I was on the phone to my friend. It was September 11, 2008, my mom came in, she didn’t have to say anything, I knew straight away what had happened. The test results were bad and the tumour was malignant. I hung up the phone without saying anything and I felt like throwing it at the wall. But to be honest, I didn’t know what it meant. I was 12, and all I cared about was playing sport. I knew it was bad but I didn’t understand the severity of it. I had cancer, a tumour that had grown on my right femur just above my knee and little did I know it would destroy parts of my life that I had never planned on letting go of.
After an operation to give him a prosthetic knee and nine months of chemotherapy Donal came back to the playing field not as a trainer but as a coach to his peers. They respected him as the fitness coach because they knew that whatever he asked of them was only the minimum he had asked of himself to learn to walk again in six weeks. They saw Donal for the man he was and played their games for the hero they saw.
In February 2102 the Cancer returned, this time to his lung and Donal had again to go under the knife to have half of his lung removed and endured another round of chemotherapy treatment until June. This time, in order to increase his lung capacity, for rehabilitation he took up cycling and reached regular trips of up to 60k. Donal joined the crossrugbylegends on their inaugural cycle in September that year from Moll’s Gap to Killarney and led the tour into his home town of Tralee to a rousing reception from family and friends.
In October 2012 Donal was diagnosed for the third, and
Hello all hope all is well in this blog I’ll share my journey with cycle against suicide which took place in april/may 😊
I have done various bits of awareness/events for cycle against suicide including a spin off in tralee last August as I knew Kevin finn Jim Breen and a few more people and after doing a few bits of awareness I still was not fully sure of what cycle against suicide really did, Eveyone mentioned they did amazing work, I knew they did amazing work but if it makes sense I never got the feel for the organisation and the amazing people are part of the ripple around Ireland that share the message ‘it’s ok not to feel ok and it’s absolutely ok to ask for help’ one of the most powerful messages I think ever, simple but very effective message that works accross the world.
April 28th was the day I got up and got ready to take myself on a journey up to Rosscommon to join the cycle against suicide crew, bike ready, bag ready as the train set off for Rosscommon, I won’t lie